Life Is What you make it!

today I was talking to my moms and she told me something that hurt my heart. My uncle that stays in Fort Lauderdale, as soon as he got off of probation, he got right back on crack/cocaine. He was doing so good a few months ago, my mom would always tell me how proud of him she was. he was in church and found him a lady that he was gonna marry. i just don't understand what would make you wanna go back to drugs. I just had to get it off my chest because he really hurt my mom. she was watching out for him so much and made sure that he was alright. the worst part is that i don't really have a male role model in my life, just my mom and sisters. so it hurt me because i always longed for that male to look up to and he was almost there until this happen. Now I'm back to square one again. i know my mom is there but I can't tell her everything because shes just not gonna understand.excuse me for getting emotional but i just felt like i had to get it out. At the same time though, I gonna do me and live life. I started to understand that maybe I'm feeling sorry for someone that doesn't even feel sorry for there selves. I guess it's all in how u see it!